It’s not hard to say goodbye sometimes.

I am patient, reasonable & empathetic, and I think these are the reasons why I never get angry. I always analyze things and come up with explanations for their actions, like I need to understand why people act/behave the way they do so I can handle certain situations and unfair behaviors maturely. I believe it’s logical and is the right thing to do—things happen in this world, and you just need to accept it.
Perhaps, that is the reason why I am angry right now. I couldn’t come up with explanations as to why I did things I shouldn’t have done. I know I shouldn’t have done it, but I did it anyway. I don’t regret anything, I just don’t like that when it happened, voila! No communication. I expected it, though. But, after saying your “hello,” you should’ve said “goodbye.” It’s common courtesy, you know—If only you did the thing I’m asking you to do the first time we started talking, then, I guess I’m not going to feel angry.
But, then, maybe at some point in my life, I felt this emotion before, but I didn’t react or chose not to show or express it to anyone. And now that I don’t repress & suppress this negative emotion, I don’t know what to do about it because it’s new to me.
I should forgive myself.

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